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These are some poems that i really like and i hope you'll like them too!

P.S.  These poems were not written by me unless otherwise stated.


Confusion

So many questions
So little time
Sometimes I ask
Am I losing my mind?
So many decisions
I know I can't make
So much critisism
I simply can't take
I can't please everyone
Though I will always try
Sometimes I get discouraged
But I don't know why
I hate all the pressures
That are brought upon me
Too many decisions
Than I'd rather there be
I just can't stand it
Don't know what to do
To feel what I feel
If only you knew
I'm not looking for sympathy
I just wish it would end
But I feel it's a battle
That I'll never win.

My Best Friend

Today I found a friend,
Who knew everything I felt.
She knew my every weakness,
And the problems I've been dealt.

She understood my wonders,
And listened to my dreams.
She listened to how I felt about life and love,
And knew what it all means.

Not once did she interupt me,
Or tell me I was wrong.
She understood what I was going through,
And promised she'd stay long

I reached out to this friend
To show her that i care
To pull her close and let her know
How much I need her there

I went to hold her hand
To pull her a bit nearer
And realized that this perfect friend I found
Was nothing but my mirror.

Deep Inside

Please don't judge me by my face
By my friends or what you hear.
Please don't laugh at what I wear
Or how I look or do my hair.
Please look deep inside of me.
And although you may not see it
I have a lot to hide.
Behind my clothes, the secrets lie
Behind my smile, I softly cry.
Please look deep inside,
And maybe you will find
The lonely girl that lives in me.
Please listen carefully to her
She'll show that she is insecure.
Please try to be a friend to her
And maybe you will see,
That if you just look deep enough
You'll find the real me.

Seasons Of Changes

Why am I so different?
What did I ever do?
To deserve the kind of treatment
that I receive from you.

You were my friend
when times were blue.
You stood by my side,
through and through.

But now you have changed,
you are acting quite different,
I want your old self,
to come out from inside.

I want our friendship back
I want you to change.
Is it asking too much
for you to be my friend once again?

Paintbrush

I keep my paintbrush with me,
Wherever I may go,
In case I need to cover up,
So the real me doesn't show.

I'm so afraid to show me to you,
Afraid of what you'll do,
That you might laugh or say mean things,
I'm afraid I might lose you.
I'd like to remove all of my paint coats,
To show you the real, true me,
But I want you to try and understand,
I need you to accept what you see.
Now my coats are all stripped off,
I feel naked, bare and cold,
And if you still love me with all that you see,
You're my friend pure as gold.
I need to keep my paintbrush with me,
And hold it in my hand.
I want to keep it handy,
In case somebody doesn't understand.
So please protect me, my dear friend
And thanks for loving me true.
But I need to keep my paintbrush with me,
Until I love me too.


Without You

By Melanie Smith (Me)

Dedicated to Heidi and Kelli

 

I often remember the many times we've shared,

Not a day goes by when the thought of you doesn't cross my mind,

When you left, my heart was left impaired,

A truer friendship than ours, I cannot hope to find.

 

My friends, without you I am incomplete,

My heart, it aches, when you are not around,

I'm yearning for the next time when we meet,

When I hear you're coming to visit, my feet lift off the ground.

 

My friends, I miss you dearly,

There's nothing I long for more,

Than the visit that comes yearly,

And when you're knocking at my door.

 

My Friend

Melanie Smith (Me)

(Dedicated to Bethany Rich)

Let me explain the difference

Between you and me

For you have never experienced

What I was forced to see.

It happened on a Sunday

Just five years ago.

I certainly didn’t expect it

But how was I to know?

That during church that day

I would realize

You don’t really understand things

Till you’ve seen them with your eyes.

For I saw my friend’s affliction

On that dreadful day.

I guess I never understood

The price she has to pay.

Born mentally disabled

You’d think she’d be naïve,

But with her seizure disorder

You wouldn’t even believe

The knowledge she must have

Due to such a trial.

It makes me wonder how

She can continue to smile.

For I saw the terror

That was etched into her face

As tears rolled down her cheeks

And I was pulled in an embrace.

I could feel her start to tremble

Which caused my heart to sink.

I knew what was going to happen

And before I could even blink

I released my hold on her

And her arms rose into the air

Wriggling without her consent

Till she was lifted from her chair.

Our teacher laid her down

Moving stuff out of the way

And I couldn’t help but watch

As she quivered where she lay.

Her mom was soon brought in

And she stroked my friend’s blonde hair

Whispering soothing words

And all I could do was stare.

Her mother took her home

As I sat in shock

Until church was over

And it was two o’clock.

When I met my mother’s eyes

After I left my class

I finally broke down

Shattering like glass.

I sobbed in her embrace

Finally having release

From those overwhelming emotions

That took a while to cease.

Although it was frightening

To see my friend like that

And feeling rather helpless

As I watched and sat

I’m really rather grateful

That I was there to see it

For it has strengthened me

If only a little bit.

I am also grateful

For it has made me see

How amazing she really is

And how much she means to me.

 

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